For the past few months I have been walking that "silent" path. Now along the way He's provided little "whispers" and they have been "treasures" to my heart. Speaking of "heart" a few months ago as I was standing at my kitchen window one rainy morning washing dishes (because yes, I am one who thinks washing dishes by hand is therapeutic (at times)…sick I know) the Lord spoke to my heart. I was having a deep inward struggle with the news that had just come in about Uganda and the New Law they were beginning to get ready to pass. We were having this conversation back and forth and it went a little something like this….
ME: "Lord, I don't understand how all of this is happening again? You called us to adopt our sweet little Flower from Uganda! You spoke that to us through several people and even confirmed it in both of our hearts, so we stepped out in faith and proclaimed bravely to the world that we were taking the plunge again and jumping feet first into this wide, scary but exciting ocean of International Adoption. Where are you in this?"
GOD: "Well, you told everyone that you trusted me and that you would follow me and listen for my voice…Here is what I'm speaking...BE STILL AND KNOW THAT "I AM GOD". I AM NOT MAN, I DO THINGS "MY WAY" AND I OPEN DOORS THAT NO MAN CAN SHUT. MY WAYS ARE NOT YOUR WAYS...YOU NEED TO LET ME DO THIS MY WAY. YOU ASKED THAT FLOWER'S STORY WOULD BE JUST AS DYNAMIC AS MALACHI'S AND THAT I WOULD GET ALL OF THE GLORY….didn't you?"
ME: "Gulp…..why yes, yes we did…"
GOD: "Well, then let me do my thing. "
And at that moment, I felt settled in my heart that we are NOT to move from Uganda at this point. I cannot explain it, BUT I know that we've not felt released from that Country. Jesus knows our hearts and how so very much this Mamma's heart is connected to that Country and it's precious people. I cannot explain it, but Africa just gets in your heart and blood. It's God-given, I firmly believe. We have tried to seek out a few other avenues for other countries, but so far those have turned up nothing and I don't think that is a coincidence. The deep love that Kevin and I both feel for this Country goes far beyond that "natural", it's definitely a "supernatural" connection. And to just prove HOW awesome Jesus is, after this little kitchen chat we had, I looked out the window as I have for the past year and saw a "precious surprise" in our tree. I'm here to tell you, I've NEVER seen this until that day. Now you can't really see it during the sunlight, it's only visible on the "dreary" I need a "boost" days…! But isn't GOD SO COOL?! (top of the bottom two branches about half way out…is a HEART)!
So in the days and weeks that have followed this conversation, I have constantly been reminded to BE STILL AND KNOW THAT HE IS GOD….and that He's got this. We've not made any progress, but in the past week, through Malachi's illness, I have made connections with a fellow Ugandan Mamma who happens to have just went through the same exact thing with one of her Ugandan Littles. We've been chatting and getting to know one another and it just so happens we have A TON more in common that any "natural" connection could have set-up. Nope, this is a God-given, "supernatural" connection and we are looking into some-things. So we humbly ask that you all continue to pray for us as we try and navigate this crazy wild second international adoption to our precious sweet "Flower"!
We are so thankful to you all and just feel incredibly blessed to be able to share what God is doing in and through our family!
Until our next update….!
